Saturday, June 6, 2009

depression


sometimes i do hope i am an alcoholic
at least drug can make poeple forgot those irrational thinkings

i am waiting
waiting for something which is immoral
waiting for something which is unbearable
waiting for something which is betrayal
waiting for something which is complicated
waiting for something which is beyond description
waiting for something which is hurtful
waiting for something which is unachievable
waiting for something which is ridiculous
waiting for something which is unreliable

feeling to slay myself
feeling to slap myself
keeping myself awake
keeping myself beware
keeping myself out of trouble



i hate yu ying
i hate yu ying who doesnt know what she wants rite now
i hate yu ying who like to have irrational thinkings
i hate yu ying for this moment
only for this moment

everything will be fine after this moment
after this moment
i love yu ying again



ps:cravings for something in this moment

2 comments:

Hebikia said...

Dear, I does't know what happen with you? Can you tell me?

HuiHui said...

what happen 2 u??
get drunk cannot make u 4get the irrational thinkings...get drunk just can let u dare 2 argue with people and after that cry and shout as loud as u want...
and also, get drunk can make u fall sleep...temporary 4get something...
or maybe once u wake up, u feel better and awake, everything will be fine...

but...the problem is still there...better say it out and discuss to get the conclusion...=)

good luck yuying...=D